In one of my first posts I mentioned that Heathenry would have been a logical path for me to take, from an ancestral perspective; my Mom’s side of the family is largely Palatine German (and British), and that’s the part of the family that I grew up with. However, at the time that I was discovering paganism (more than 15 years ago now – ye Gods!) I was still subconsciously running away from that part of my heritage, as I associated it with my heavily Christian upbringing (my grandfather, into whose house we moved when I was five, was a serving Lutheran minister).
As I’ve grown older, of course, time and experience (and having a relatively solid religious identity) have given me a better perspective on this question, and lately I find myself drawn more strongly back to some of the mental landscapes of my childhood. Particularly at this time of year, German-ness seems to be everywhere for me – Christmas trees and other holiday customs of German or Scandinavian origin, carols like Stille Nacht and O Tannenbaum that I can still sort of sing in the original, and of course all the memories of Christmas with my grandparents (who both passed on a number of years ago). This year especially, for some reason, the “season of memory” from Samhain to Yule has been particularly powerful for me.
I find myself reading blogs by my Heathen colleagues and resonating strongly with the old familiar Germanic worldview – the fatalism, so similar to Stoicism in many ways but with a flavor all its own; the idea of kin relationship with the Gods that doesn’t really exist in Hellenism; the Sagas and the Anglo-Saxon literature that I breathed in college. I love Mittelalter-rock¹, and bathing in the German singing takes me back in a visceral way that only music can do, especially for me.
I don’t know where this calling is leading me, just yet – I don’t feel a great urge to become Ásatrú, and I’m certainly not ready to abandon Hellenism or Druidry (in fact, the Druid aspect of my path has also been becoming more important to me lately) – but I think it means *something* more than Erik’s getting nostalgic in middle age. :)
 Mittelalter-rock (Medieval rock) is a German movement that grew out of their great Medieval Fairs (they have these like we have Renaissance Faires in America). Styles can range from groups using purely or mostly period instruments (Corvus Corax, Filia Irata, Ohrenpeyn) to a mix of period and modern (Saltatio Mortis, Schelmish, Qntal²), and from more-or-less-straight medieval with lots of Christian music (that being mostly what there was in the Middle Ages) to mock-Christian (Potentia Animi – very good musically, but I find their “naughty” inverted-Catholicism shtick rather tiresome) to outright pagan (Faun).
 Qntal started out as a side project of some of the members of Estampie, which is focused more on straight early-music performance.